It’s been almost 3 wks since I found out about my moms cancer. It’s been hard coping with things since she still won’t talk to me. My heart is heavy, but my head is telling me to stop what I’m feeling because if she can’t care enough to heal old wounds before anything happens, they why should I keep trying.

I have been in contact with my uncle and he’s been giving a little bit of what’s going on. He doesn’t give me much info, since he’s not online very much. From what I hear she’s not doing well at all. My uncle even said she looks close to death. That was heard to hear, and it hurt.

When I talked to my Uncle today, I was pretty harsh about things, but right now I’m dealing with my own personal things and to add my mom on top of it just got a little much on me. I pretty much said I was done trying with her, when she’s ready to accept me in her life then let her on her own terms, I can’t fight something that isn’t even there. I pretty told him I was giving up on her, but I think he took my words the wrong way. I wasn’t saying I was giving up on her life. I give up at trying’ to fight for something that isn’t there.

They put her on a nausea meds because they chemo is making her so sick. So she’s going to talk to her Dr. about her meds because she said they make her pee too much. So she’s either going to request being taken off the Chemo or something else. So just please pray that she makes the right decision.

I will keep y’all posted on more when I know more. Thanks for all the prayers that have come in and that keep on coming in. I truly appreciate them.

Much Love,
Dom